{UPDATE} My beautiful Raya journal *Bahasa & English too

Hello pretty awesome! 

As-salamu alaykum :)

Macam mana raya anda? Best tak? Ok sebelum korang terjebak dengan membaca entry nie baik stop kalau rasa2 xsuka baca novel..Sebab kali nie memang nak buat blog macam dairi peribadi so, expect it to be long and banyak melalut ke laut. And less beauty more Raya related stuff.

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I'm not sure if you can relate. But I think I'm getting sick and tired of my job. Not because of work mainly..but because of the way we've been treated by the superior. I never whine about my job but recently it has becoming a lot more stressful when your boss treated you like a kid. And I'm not talking about personal issues but she had been treated everyone awfully. Don't get me wrong, I love my job.. Although it's not the most glamorous job ever.. I learn new things everyday and I just love interacting with people.

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One thing to be clear, most would placed nurses as the worst person ever. Need to remind you that we're individual. Not every nurses are the same and as much as I love my job I won't let anyone misunderstood me and my career. I would give the best care I can even when I'm not in the mood, even when I'm sad, even when I'm hungry or even when I have to leave my family back home. However, that's what made me sad. I only get cuti Raya once every 2 years and yet for that, I only get 2 days of cuti and some of my friends didn't get any cuti at all. I just don't understands when your job requires you to have the greatest empathy and sympathy towards people yet you've shown no mercy at all towards your own kind when you become the superior. Bukan nak membebel pasal cuti je, even simple things like doctor's fault are treated as ours. Yang kene marah semuanya kami. I really really hope that someday this will all change.

Just remember, we can't change people but we can definitely change the situation to make it better. So, as I'm letting it out here, I'm gonna change the way I think and act. There must be reason for my superior to be the way she is. So let her be and let me be me.

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Full stop kat situ. Let's talk about my Raya. Sehari sebelum raya mulalah perjalanan balik ke kampung halaman.

Tahun ni rasa macam miracle sebab highway x jem lansung. Kalau sebelum- sebelum nia rasa agak sesak. Tapi bila sampai Taiping, it wasn't like kampung anymore. Penuh shopping mall and crowded with people...haiah.. OTW, saya dah mula isi duit raya dalam sampul. Kalau dulu, eksaited balik kampung sebab nak dapat duit raya. Tapi kali ni turn kite pulak bagi duit raya kat org. sob sob.

Hari Raya pertama, kalau kat kampung, semestinya solat eidul fitri xdilepaskan. Memang perkara wajib satu family kami buat... Tapi tak tahu lah tahun depan ap nasib saya..

Kebetulan tahun ni banyak telekung warna- warni start dijual..Tapi kami pilih hitam sbb nampak common tapi cantik.

Pastu macam tahun lepas ad visit kubur, tahun ni juga begitu. Kalau tahun lepas kat KL, kubur nenek,belah emak, tahun nie kubur nenek dan tok wan belah abah kat area Matang, Perak.

Actually it shouldn't be a tradition of Raya, visit kubur only when it's Raya. It's surely a sad reality to see and I'm not excluded from this. Sometimes busy schedule is just something unavoidable.

Macam biasa, mesti sempat bergambar dimana- mana kami berada.

Tulah adik beradik ku yang ku cintai. Bila senyum nampak sepesen je kan.. Tapi best lagi kalau adik bradik ramai. Baru meriah ...nnti kawin nak anak ramai- ramai baru heboh time raya.

And kalau raya, orang sibuk cari ketupat lemang, saya paling sibuk testing kuih raya. Memang hantu kuih raya. Kalau nak buat tu..ehem,,,xrajin sangt...jadi juri kuih raya memang nombor satu.

Kami honestly jarang amik gambar satu family, so I guess this is our family portrait of the year. Abaikan kegelapan dan quality gambar. Yang penting, semua ad.

Raya kedua, kami pergi jauh sikit dari Taiping ke Kuala Ketil, Kedah. Ke rumah Tok Tam dan Tok Teh. Inilah moment yang buat saya sedih xdpt cuti raya setiap tahun. Kalau dulu sibuk pasal duit raya, Now, I'm more to family orientated. Makin nak close to family bonding, nak kenal2 sedara mara jauh. Because moment macam nie bukan slalu dapat especially working kat big city. Semua dengan hal masing- masing walaupun living under the one roof.

 Yang baju putih tu Tok Wan belah mak, umur dia dah 82..tapi memori still kuat and dia kelakar..Tapi dia dah xlarat nak buat aktiviti semua ...This is one more thing that makes me sad about my job...my grandfather is ill back in hometown and yet, I have to leave him and take care of strangers. Bukan xsuka jage mak ayah tok nenek org lain..tp wish bole klonkan diri supaya boleh berada di dua tempat dalam satu masa. I really hope that time does not fly so fast cause I don't want him to miss seeing his 'cicit' one day. Before I became a nurse, sejujurnya saya lebih kisah nak spend time dengan kawan2, nak have fun and so on, but nursing teaches me to appreciate life and people around you.

 And that's how I spend my cuti  raya.. It doesn't have to be a long cuti, but a cuti fill with lovely moment that I can cherish forever is what I wanted.

Day three of Raya, I was already back in KL, working and celebrated Raya with boyfie.

Amat- amat hargai raya tahun ni sebab dapat beraya dengan family.

Sepuluh jari ku susun memohon ampun dan maaf sekiranya terkasar bahasa, tersilap kata, terlanjak perbuatan dan seangkatan dengannya. I'm not a perfect person, I do make mistakes and I apologized from the bottom of my heart to all of you and I'm thankful to Allah for everything that happen to me ever since I was born to this world, I'm thankful for the family I have that always been there for me and for the people around me that makes me who I am today.

In blogging world, especially for this Raya, I wanna give special 'thank you shout out' to Supermodels secrets shop for the lovely card Raya, duit Raya and 'kuih' Raya. Honestly, this is most heartwarming act that I ever felt. I salute them for being humble and thoughtful to people.

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Again, thanks to SS again for the lovely lens (Read review here)

and Fashion Culture for the awesome tudung and accessories ( It's a fashion box! Click here to know more)

Happy to say that I won an IG contest with that look too.

Most of what I wore during raya hanya lah dari Jalan TAR, xde tempah- tempah designer. Semua mix and match, bajet bawah seratus per look. Did you know that Jalan Tunku Abdul Rahman offer variety of clothing during Raya eve? My modest look turns out to be a great Raya for me..Alhamdulillah..

Dengan ini, bahagialah sudah diriku pada Raya kali nie. Jumpa Raya Tahun depan.

Hopefully this post doesn't offend anybody cause I just wanted to make a memorable

 note for myself.

PS: Side note sikit, Teruskan doa anda untuk Palestin. Boikot atau tak, itu hak masing- masing. Nak boikot sepenuh- penuhnya atau separuh- separuh itu hak masing- masing. Tolak tepi soal politik, tolak tepi hal bangsa. This is about being human, no religion teaches ones to do harm in order to make it right. Being right is about the process of doing good things. Small or big, at least..do your part to help out and don't questions others.

Till next time. Salam. Thank you for reading.

XOXO

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